Story line of my book

Protagonist , Suhaas, who lived for 15 years  outside, away from the family. He often struggled to get his family though he had good and rich experience. He shared a lot of his feeling with outsiders , but not with family or own relatives. Somewhere he was stuck between his opinion of the life and nature of his family.

               He changed after his divorce, whom he argued and finally he took firm decision. That was turning point. Slowly and gradually he started the meaning as well as purpose of his own life. Somehow he got married to less educated after lot of effort by the family and the relatives. He succumbed before his family. At that time  he was thrown out the college for three times. Then chaos of his life entered his life and started consuming his mental peace.

                The chaos , around him did not allow him to settle down, in between he faced physical and mental agony. The gynecologist  advised him to go for proper treatment if he needed to have a kid from his marriage life. His mind always tortured him for his inability to produce the kid. His comparison with his colleagues as well as his close friend made him silent, inferior complex and a man of mental suffering. His internal voice did not keep him close with his near and dear ones. Vice versa his family thought of him as an orthodox ,and he thought of them. Day after day he was regarded as an unimportant person in the family. That might be his assumption and perception about his family.

                            All the time he was surrounded by various thought. He sometime thought of escaping and also suicide. Simultaneously he liked to be a hermit. But his own thought disallowed it. So he kept himself silent, isolated  and mentally separated. He didn’t have courage to take responsibility as his younger brother was. When everything was dry , then he came across a lady on line and found love in her. Then he was familiar with her, but didn’t disclose her about his married life. Somewhere he was discontented but happy with that lady who was twice separated from hubby. He always dreamt of his marriage with her and kept his wife away. At same time he deceived that lady even he knew it. That was only a ray of happiness and intentionally he engaged with her. Giving lot of false promise for meeting and discussing with her on marriage. It never arrived and it again started to haunt him why he deceived and kept  her in the dark.

                  After much effort by doctor and his constant treatment he at last became  a father of a child. Somewhat he found a reason of happiness,but his past hovered his mind and started torturing him. He was totally emotional and became a toy at other’s hand. He had unending questions to self and his education. Day by day he became a man of consciousness as well as commitment. Some of these kept him awake in the night too. At last he was feeling to lose his own life and standing on the bank of the river to end his life. Thinking that water of the river would purify his own sin what he did. But again his unending questions and his wakeful mind did not allow him to take a final call. Slowly and gradually he made himself a puppet between his thought and internal questions. Whom should he keep believing ? whether he would get freedom from the clutches of mental , physical , internal  and own thought or not? Still he was standing there on the bank of river.